Wishing you all a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Custom Art for Saul
So, I've decided to look on the bright side, Remember the happy times.
This is a before and after of a dresser I had made for Saul. I hope he still thinks of me when he goes to bed at night. I'm proud of this.
Another time I had made him custom waterproof coasters. These are another project I am super proud of. I should have more stickers coming as I have a friend who works at Sig who just mailed me a bunch when he saw what I was doing with them. Thank you Adam. :)
I miss being in bed with you Saul.
To Saul on Thanksgiving
Wishing you a beautiful Thanksgiving Day.
Relax, and enjoy the company of your family & friends.
We've been through a lot, good & bad. I am grateful for both. The looks, the chemistry, the lessons, the cuddling..... You taught me a very painful lesson. I had to learn it. I know most of it wasn't easy for either one of us. But, at the end of the day, I thank you, for everything.
I am extremely grateful for the weekly shirt swap. I am still healing, and this has helped my anxiety immensely. Thank you.
I am grateful for Can'tAffords. I am grateful for folding your laundry. I
am grateful for all the time you spent with me. I'll never forget the pure happiness I found in spending time with you.
I hope you have a beautiful day.
Relax, and enjoy the company of your family & friends.
We've been through a lot, good & bad. I am grateful for both. The looks, the chemistry, the lessons, the cuddling..... You taught me a very painful lesson. I had to learn it. I know most of it wasn't easy for either one of us. But, at the end of the day, I thank you, for everything.
I am extremely grateful for the weekly shirt swap. I am still healing, and this has helped my anxiety immensely. Thank you.
I hope you have a beautiful day.
Thanksgiving 2018
Wishing you all a Happy Thanksgiving Day. I hope it's filled with love, laughter, family & friends.
Cherish this day always.
Forgiveness is an amazing thing. To be able to forgive those who have done us harm, is what it means to be set free.
Enjoy your day with friends, family & loved ones. I am finally back to work on somewhat of a normal schedule, so i'm going to be working. This, I am grateful for.
Section 12 ~ MVH ~ Whittier
Emergency mental health. A field that needs much work. To read about a Section 12 in the state of MA please visit this link: https://malegislature.gov/Laws/GeneralLaws/PartI/TitleXVII/Chapter123/Section12
September
is always a painful month, due to the anniversaries of my Brothers
and Mothers deaths. I thought the month would go OK, as my ex took the time to spend the night of the 8th-9th night with me. It meant so much to me, I appreciated it more than he could ever know.
In between these two dates, I had bought a new car and 4 days later totaled it in a car accident. 2 days before that I had declined gap insurance, never thinking anything would ever happen. Bad move. So, I ended up buying another car and now have two car payments for awhile. That is a huge financial stress that is causing some worry and anxiety. Sometimes life just throws everything at you all at one. I couldn't handle it. I knew I was going to crack. It had been building for months.
Around 10:30am on Sunday the 23rd, I was super low, hopeless, and felt helpless. I called Hampstead Hospital and spoke with a woman in admissions. I wanted to drive there and sign in. Due to various reasons, she told me I'd have to go through a MA ER first. I had gone though that part many times and always was able to get released. Not this time. I had a Section 12A put on me and the police & ambulance showed up at my sister in laws house to pick me up.
I spent 52 hours in the Merrimack Valley Hospital ER. Waiting for a bed. So, I saw crisis, and waited in a room with 4 other patients laying on gurneys. All belongings were taken away, and we could do nothing but try to sleep. This is an insane amount of time, considering being in this type of situation can and did cause massive anxiety. I was bawling, crying, hyperventilating. Not fun. I got ONE Valium for the 2 and a half days I was there. I also had $20 cash stolen from my purse and my bottle of Adderall was taken while my purse was supposed to be locked in a locker. I spoke to the ER Manager who is looking into it, but I doubt anything will come of that.
Forward to Tuesday the 25th around 2:00pm, I was finally transferred to Whittier Pavilion in Haverhill. This is the part where I would get the help I needed. As soon as I got in I signed the 3 day form, at 2:35pm, making it likely I'd get out in 72 hours unless the doctor thought I needed more time, he would have had to take me to court to keep me there.
I was pretty comfortable the moment I arrived. I said to myself it was a retreat for myself, to work on me. I had a blast, met some amazing people, helped some amazing people with my experiences and basically wish I hadn't resisted this for so many months. The staff was super nice and supportive and they provided some great groups for the patients. Being around others with similar issues really put my problems into perspective. It was just really, really nice to be around so many supportive people, helping each other out. 2 of the people who I got close with even made me signs to put up in my room as a daily reminder for my heartbreak / addiction to Saul.
I have two major complaints. The first being the amount of time I spent in the ER waiting for a bed. 2.5 days. This is outrageous. Another patient I met at Whittier had spent 3 days waiting !! This is just wrong in every way. When you have anxiety and are holed up in one room for 2 and a half days, being watched, it only makes you feel worse. We need more facilities, to say the least. My second complaint is that anyone who knows a smoker, knows that people smoke as a stress reliever. A coping mechanism. When I was put in Whittier a few of us asked why, if we had fresh air time outside, we couldn't smoke. The reasoning was that the hospital gets more funding from the state if they can call themselves a Non-Smoking facility. Crazy right ?! Getting more money is more important than the comfort of the patients. That just blows my mind.
During my stay at Whittier it was extremely helpful to be surrounded by others who had problems going on in their life right now, it made me realize that I am not alone. One of the best feelings being in those places, is being able to get out your own head and focus on helping others and healing yourself. Talking, comforting, reassuring others, hopefully giving them a ray of hope. There was nothing like the feeling of seeing some of them smile and laugh. That is the meaning of life.
I will still stumble and fall, possibly relapse. Being addicted to someone is not fun at all, and it is the same as being addicted to any substance. This is my current reading material. It humanizes the person, makes you look at the person logical, as opposed to emotionally. Similar to focusing on their negative qualities. Asking things such as, do these negative qualities outweigh the positives and vice versa.
Right now I am just hoping to get through each day right now. Focusing on what is good and healthy for me. With help and support from family, friends, therapy and groups, I will conquer this. I have to. For my life.
If you are feeling suicidal, depressed, or just need to get some help, please call the National Suicide Hotline at: -1800-273- 8255 or visit them on the web at: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
A special Thank You to those that visited me.
During my stay at Whittier it was extremely helpful to be surrounded by others who had problems going on in their life right now, it made me realize that I am not alone. One of the best feelings being in those places, is being able to get out your own head and focus on helping others and healing yourself. Talking, comforting, reassuring others, hopefully giving them a ray of hope. There was nothing like the feeling of seeing some of them smile and laugh. That is the meaning of life.
I will still stumble and fall, possibly relapse. Being addicted to someone is not fun at all, and it is the same as being addicted to any substance. This is my current reading material. It humanizes the person, makes you look at the person logical, as opposed to emotionally. Similar to focusing on their negative qualities. Asking things such as, do these negative qualities outweigh the positives and vice versa.
Right now I am just hoping to get through each day right now. Focusing on what is good and healthy for me. With help and support from family, friends, therapy and groups, I will conquer this. I have to. For my life.
If you are feeling suicidal, depressed, or just need to get some help, please call the National Suicide Hotline at: -1800-273- 8255 or visit them on the web at: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
A special Thank You to those that visited me.
Update
I know I have been MIA recently. So, Just a quick update here.
Last month was my Birthday. The middle of Summer. It's usually my favorite time of year. Not this year. I was in a deep, deep state of severe depression and was suicidal. I had to take a medical leave from work. Been working with my therapist and have adjusted my anti depressant. It's been almost a week since I've started feeling better. I am praying daily and working with my angels & spirit guides. I believe I've had a Divine Intervention over the weekend. More on that when I get the details from the witnesses.
One day at a time. Focusing on me. Being positive. Happiness.
Be back soon,
Soles of Haverhill
Last week I took myself on a tour of the Soles of Haverhill shoe paintings that are placed throughout the city. Currently there are 16, but a few were out being repaired. I enjoyed going in this "treasure hunt", I hope you enjoy the photos.
From the Team Haverhill website:
Soles of Haverhill is a community celebration of shoe manufacturing & design’s important role in Haverhill’s history, highlighted by the public display of painted shoe sculptures throughout downtown.
From the Team Haverhill website:
Soles of Haverhill is a community celebration of shoe manufacturing & design’s important role in Haverhill’s history, highlighted by the public display of painted shoe sculptures throughout downtown.
Bradford Bridge from Harbor Place
"If The Shoe Fits"
Artist: Susan Blim
Location: Broadway
"Sole Sisters"
Artist: Sharon Welch
Location: MVRTA Parking Garage
"A Weitzman Family Affair"
Artists: Stuart, Jane, Rachel Weitzman & Elizabeth Persing Silver
Location: Hamel Mill Lofts Lobby, Locke St.
"Shoe Town"
Artist: Rob Sardella
Location: Bethany Homes, Inc, Phoenix Row
"Haverhill's Music History"
Artist: Alan Pearsall
Location: Trinity Episcopal Church, White St.
"Queen Slipper City"
Artist: Maria Fontaine & Elissa Dawson
Location: Haverhill City Hall, Summer St.
"Pentucket, Place By The Winding River"
Artist: Elizabeth Persing
Location: Pentucket Bank, Downtown
"Ya Gotta Haverhill"
Artist: Rob Sardella
Location: Buttonwoods Museum, Water St.
"Phoenix, 1882"
Artist: Mimi Johnson
Location: Haverhill Firefighting Museum, Kenoza Ave.
"Morning Slipper"
Artists: Michael Glowacki & Jill Barry
Location: Cogswell School, South Main St.
"Seymour The Lion"
Artist: Dawn Evans Scaltreto
Location: Greenleaf & South Main St.
The shoes that were out for repair were:
"Fishy Fashionistas"
Location: Bradford Rail Trail
"A Flourishing Future"
Location: Harbor Place
"The Sole of Education"
Location: NECC Side Entrance
"Three Generations of Pharmacists"
Location: Bradford Square
"A Vibrant Sole"
Location: Columbus Park
If you'd like more information on the shoes, please visit
http://teamhaverhill.org/projects/arts/solesofhaverhill/
On Facebook:
https://www.facebook.com/SolesOfHaverhillShoeLabration
Divinely Guided Healing with Theresa
Happy Spring !!
It's finally arrived !! With Spring comes renewal, blossoms, and hope. I have spent much of the Winter hibernating with a serious case of the blues. There were many nights filled with severe anxiety and depression. I want to share with you what I have been doing to get through.
A friend of mine, Teri, has been giving me weekly healing sessions focusing on my depression and anxiety. I have gone for about a month now and am so impressed with the results that I just had to share with you. She has started her own business, Divinely Guided Healing with Theresa, and I can't tell you how amazingly gifted she is, I personally feel so much lighter, happier, and renewed in just the short time I have been seeing her. My anxiety has gone from a 10 to basically non-existent. I can't express enough to you about how much better I feel and how much closer I am to divine light.
Spiritual Healing involves healing through energy, vibrations, sounds and mathematics. Teri is able to help with:
Teri is the vessel through which Mother Goddess speaks to you, to help you in healing. What usually happens during a healing session is, you lie down on a table and basically just relax. There is a scented mist diffuser going, and the most serene, calming music playing. This makes you feel really relaxed. Teri starts by sitting on the stool behind your head, and does what she needs to, to connect with the Mother Goddess and Father God. What follows in nothing short of amazing. I have been able to get into a trance-like state, and have seen some beautiful images. Fluffy clouds going by, floating through space and deep in the sea. My session last week involved a specific photo of my Mother, the photo came alive, and I felt myself running towards her.... at that moment I felt a tear run down my cheek. If you know me, you know what a huge hole I have felt in my heart since my Mom passed in 2006. This was such a beautiful experience. I ran home to find the photo and now keep it up where I can see it every day.
- spiritual healing
- physical issues such as arthritis and thyroid problems
- addiction issues such as food and drugs
- mental health problems such as anxiety and depression
Teri is the vessel through which Mother Goddess speaks to you, to help you in healing. What usually happens during a healing session is, you lie down on a table and basically just relax. There is a scented mist diffuser going, and the most serene, calming music playing. This makes you feel really relaxed. Teri starts by sitting on the stool behind your head, and does what she needs to, to connect with the Mother Goddess and Father God. What follows in nothing short of amazing. I have been able to get into a trance-like state, and have seen some beautiful images. Fluffy clouds going by, floating through space and deep in the sea. My session last week involved a specific photo of my Mother, the photo came alive, and I felt myself running towards her.... at that moment I felt a tear run down my cheek. If you know me, you know what a huge hole I have felt in my heart since my Mom passed in 2006. This was such a beautiful experience. I ran home to find the photo and now keep it up where I can see it every day.
If you are interested in contacting Teri you can do so at (978) 729-8799 or email her at teryberry@msn.com She is located in Haverhill, MA. If your looking to overcome something negative, and gain a huge positive, I am recommending Teri to you, she truly is a gifted healer and you will feel so much better, I know I did and still do.
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Love & Light,
